crisisrain | ♐ 009 // [Voice]

[She was gone... He knew it would come to this one day; after all, this is how things were supposed to be. Instead, he felt sick, angry, and it hurt so much more than he thought it would. More than anything however, he was confused. What was he supposed to do now? Just continue on as if nothing happened? He couldn't forget her, he had promised hwe that. But losing her yet again was just heart-breaking.

He sat there on the edge of his bed, journal in hand. What do you say at times like this? He didn't want sympathy, he didn't want anyone to know he hurt. When it came to emotions he liked to keep them strictly to himself. So he laughed. It wasn't a happy laugh, more of a desperate one with no punchline to the joke. He didn't care either. When he stopped he opened the journal.]

[The following is directed to house 12 more than anything.]

I'm gonna need some time to myself for a while, so I'm leavin' the house. I'll be back soon though, take care of the garden for me.

[Filtered to Buffy | Unhackable]

I was ignorant, sorry.

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Are you all right, Raven?

Not really, no.

Did something happen?

Someone I cared about just got sent home, it's nothin' for ya to worry about.

Oh... I'm sorry to hear that, but... I guess that won't make you feel much better, will it?

It's alright. They were long gone back home, I never expected to see them here at all. Honestly? I consider myself lucky to have ever had that chance.

Yeah... it's funny how things work out like sometimes. I never thought I'd get half of the chances to do things that I've had here, but now I can't imagine them not happening. Even if it makes me sad, I still wouldn't trade the chance to meet the people I have for anything.

Ya say that, but happens if you don't remember everythin' once you return home? It makes it all worth nothing in the end.

That's not true-- they're still things that happened, even if we don't remember them. They still made us happy while we could remember them. I don't think that's worth nothing.

Once you're back home with no recollection, then it's worth nothing to you anymore. It only counts when you're here.

That's the one thing I never understood about this place, how come some people can remember and other's can't? Who decides that?

It's not worth nothing! Because if it is, then... then...

[... then what will happen to me when Ratatosk fully awakens?]

Then what? I'm not psychic, I don't know if ya don't tell me.

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Then I... n-never mind, I shouldn't bother you with things that are my problems. I mean, unless you really wanted to know, but I don't see why you would, so, um...

I've got enough problems of my own, it'd be nice to hear how other people are sufferin' too. Enlighten me.

[Smoooooth.]

But we were talking about you, not me...

[Deeeerrrrrp.]

You don't wanna know my suffering, kid, it'd just make you depressed.

How do you know that until you tell me?

Because yer the kind of kid who gets miserable easy.

I am not!

... okay, so maybe I am, but that doesn't matter!

[...]

Wait, I've got an idea. I'll tell you about what's bothering me if you tell me what's bothering you. That way it's fair for both of us, right?

Mine's kinda simple; someone I cared about got sent home.

Your turn!

Raven...

What? I told ya the truth.

But there's more to it than just that, isn't there? Besides the not being able to see them again.

[And as an afterthought, he'll add a somewhat crude filter to show that he's willing to listen.]

[He'll be checking that filter to make sure it's not hackable.]

What makes ya think that?

[It's probably at least decently safe, but Raven can make it safer if he wants.]

Because this reminds me of how I acted when someone I... someone very important to me was sent home.

[He may be derpy, but he's not dumb.]

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